the soundtrack of my summer

Things to Remember

ryn — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 16:42:03 +0000

I am getting out of sales. The next job I have, its not going to be sales. I am so disillusioned by people, disappointed and broken by the things I face in my course of work. One thing is for sure, I have to smarten up. I guess I didn’t learn my lesson well enough from the previous experience, but after a whole circle I have come to realize that nothing has changed. Trust no one.

And if you don’t believe me, don’t say I never warned you.

Achievements are achievements. But are those what I want? In exchange for the dread I face around people I am unable to get along with? Somehow, I think not.

And I just can’t figure out WHY. Don’t tell me some people are just mean by nature…. That can’t be possible every damn time right???? Nothing lasts forever. They say, the party is over. I guess I need to sit down and think very carefully, whether money is more important…… Or a healthy balanced lifestyle is.

Humans are scary creatures. Watch your backs.

Twenty 11

ryn — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 06:31:34 +0000

It’s the end of another year, start of the new. Does time past faster than ever now that we are older?

Reflections, reflections… 2011 was a tough year. Left my first job in a bank, went through the woes of job hunting, landed myself a job in another bank… Made new friends, lost some, found back some precious ones.

I think life really gets very different when we are working. Being old enough to work means we now earn money and money.. Oh, money… I guess whoever said money makes the world goes round wasn’t lying. It’s kinda scary to see how the world REALLY revolves around money, and how I have forgotten that important lesson of contentment as I find myself caught in this daily rat race. The race to earn more, live better, and be in sync with this society.

Thank God for timely reminders that jolt me back to reality. Contentment is always something on my mind, maybe somewhere near the back but never really forgotten. So this is what I’m going to do for 2012:

1. Live healthier
2. Work smarter
3. Love generously

I guess we can all interpret this in different ways in line with our own ideals in life. Have a good year my friends! :)

Tonsillitis

ryn — Tue, 06 Dec 2011 10:46:02 +0000

It’s been a long while since I’ve visited this space. I guess with Twitter, microblogging is really a much faster way to rant.

It’s been almost 6 months since I started working in this “new” job. Not so new anymore, since it’s been some time. I tend to make comparisons more frequently than not, though I know that’s not so good. I don’t love my job, but I am satisfied with it at this point of life. The best part about sales is the money. And it’s probably also the worst place to make friends. Haha, but that’s okay I guess. I was prepared for this. (or at least I think I was….)

I’m at home today because I fell sick from holidaying in China! It’s a true cycle: I always fall sick after holidays. I think I should start getting healthy. For starters, EXERCISE. Need it too badly. Nowadays, no one pretends anymore. They just tell me in my face that I’m fat, have grown fatter, face looks rounder… Blah.

I think it’s about time to think about what to do with my life next… This year has been a rough one indeed. Maybe I’ll check in here when I have my list up! For now, HAPPY DECEMBER!!! Let’s run hard when no one else is running!!!

Christmas Cards

ryn — Sun, 11 Sep 2011 03:34:04 +0000

At the end of the day, you need to figure out what’s best for you.

And I need to get on with my life.

Blind

ryn — Sun, 10 Jul 2011 17:25:49 +0000

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we’d be here
Never thought we’d be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Spice of Life

ryn — Sun, 26 Jun 2011 06:14:47 +0000

“Inside the heart of each and every one of us there is a longing to be understood by someone who really cares. When a person is understood, he or she can put up with almost anything in the world.”

Someone sent me this today. I quite liked it but it was too long for a tweet… So, this is the best place for it!

Polka Whites

ryn — Sun, 19 Jun 2011 10:55:46 +0000

I need to expand my nail polish collection soon. It’s kinda boring to have only one work-friendly colour. I might have to start exploring some reds.

Since it’s mostly training this week, I chose Skull & Glossbones instead of Dulce de Leche again. But because my nails are soooo long, they looked slightly creepy/corpsey. After brainstorming for a bit, I was forced to add some design to my nails because I accidentally got them stained with some black polish while attempting to learn konad stamping. That didn’t work out, by the way. But I have cute Easter nails now!

Sorry for the lousy photos every time. My iPhone camera isn’t exactly very good because there are fingerprints all over and the lighting is usually poor.

I didn’t draw on all the nails because it was too tiring (and the cough syrup made me really drowsy) but I quite like how it turned out!!!

Work is pretty tiring though I’ve been doing absolutely nothing. Fell sick after just 3 days :( I think my body is used to staying at home all day lying in bed watching tv. Full time couch potato!! But definitely glad to be back at work again! Need to get back the workaholic momentum soon.

Gonna shower now… I hope my nails don’t start peeling off!

Dulce de Leche

ryn — Sun, 05 Jun 2011 09:34:29 +0000

I’ve been waiting for this for soooo long. Dulce de Leche is absolutely gorgeous!!! It’s super pretty on my nails but I had a horrible time painting them on. Sigh, I have no talent in nail painting. Especially… Painting my right hand with my left :(

I might add some polka dots in a few days if I don’t start work soon. Sigh, I wish my nails would paint themselves. I’d have this on for work forever. Milky, sweet, just like it’s name says!

Back To December

ryn — Wed, 01 Jun 2011 17:47:31 +0000

I’m so glad you made time to see me
How’s life? Tell me, how’s your family?
I haven’t seen them in a while

You’ve been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn’t call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I’d love you right

I’d go back in time and change it, but I can’t
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

Confidence

ryn — Mon, 30 May 2011 14:59:08 +0000